Barinishtha

I've seen the rainfall and it reminds me of you. Every single time, It's like the water is falling Like I fell for you, Every single time, You had that Smile, I did, trust me, I did. It's rather vexing and oblivious, makes me want to question my sanity, Every single time, Like when you used to see me hurt and make me feel like I was at fault, for you were right, it was, Every Single time. Every single time, The fault was mine, even though, you were the reason, Every single time. I gave you the power, I wouldn't give none, For what hurt me was nothing, but things you would have done, without me, but didn't. Every single time, I see the rainfall, it reminds me of you, every single time, And, Oh! When it rains heavily, it's the same, yet again, it's all the agony and anxiety, I couldn't express, Every single time, But you did. You destroyed me with your words Like your actions weren't enough, Every single time. You left me cryin...

...And I Saw you, and I knew that I was getting into trouble You didn't seem like it. Do not get me wrong here. You were everything I thought I didn't want. You were everything I knew I didn't need--But then something happened. Something changed.  Don't ask me. you won't be able to handle it. Why? I know not. actually, It is pretty weird. I know nothing, and still, somehow I thought, I knew everything. Confusing enough? Let me simplify it for you.  I won't be starting from Day 1, For, If I Could, I would. It is probably because-- Not the fact that I am embarrassed to write, But because, I do not remember when it all started.  At first, I thought it was all fun and games, Days with you were like walking in an endless field of beautiful orchids, You know, the ones that look super pleasant. It reminded me of you, whenever I would come across a few- And now, I sleep at morning dew. Thinking of why, and how could you, Get through, So easily without me...

And we're walking past a road and you see me getting tired. I stop for a while, it's not like I'd retire-- --Well, someday, for sure, but just not yet, You saw me stop, you didn't wait.  You started walking faster and saw her then. She came in her car and swept you off, I saw, and it hurt, that abandonment. I continued to walk, on the same path, Without any salt, wanting the best for you. I wanted you to be happy and I walked ahead, wanting to see you smile, soon. I got tired walking all that while, my body was shivering.  I was all alone, and my voice was quivering.  I stopped, I couldn't walk anymore, I didn't retire still, I just sat there on the road, again, Hoping that you will -- Find happiness. A while after my teary eyes, clouded with the mist of sulk, Saw a face similar to yours, tired and worn out in bulk. As it came closer, I recognized the face, but the soul I knew, Was fading away. You said that the car ran out of fuel, and sh...

Well, Greetings, for whenever you're reading this.  How are you? Still good? Great. Great to hear that.  How have you been sleeping lately? Is it as well as I used to sleep when you weren't even mine? Or is it as bad as it was when you actually were? Well, It doesn't matter anymore, now. Does it? I read this somewhere, probably some post on Instagram, that read: "Sometimes people have a tough time sleeping at night, For that Sh*t requires peace" I mean, Where is the lie? Losing sleep over people is romanticized a great deal. I've seen those posts. But hey, Kudos! to "Love" that actually messes with your physical AND mental health, right? Great. ME? Don't even bother asking about me. I do not think that I could put it into words. Neither do I think that you would understand, even if I could.  Where was all this? Your concern, I mean? I'm not calling you fake. I'd rather call you real. real to the extent of making mistakes--Th...