Barinishtha

  "I quit" or "I don't want to live anymore" more like the dangerous or rather frightening thought that crosses the mind of several people around us and most of the times remain unnoticed.   India recorded a total of 1,35,445 suicides in 2015. In India, 1/3rd of the suicide cases include young people aged 15-29 years. Suicide is slowly becoming kind of a culture among youth.   Suicide is the act of voluntarily taking ones own life; usually committed to end the suffering. Usually pain mixed with guilt, anger and regret is what convinces people to commit suicide. The most common reasons for suicide include: Depression,   anxiety,   fear of not being accepted (by peers or society),   psychological trauma, physical and mental abuse, etc. Suicidal symptoms include : Frequent crying and self-loathing, Becoming extremely emotionless, Increased drug and alcohol addiction, Scars denoting self-harm, etc.    While having thoughts of sui...

I met a boy once, but he wasn't a boy People called me crazy But they won't understand . . . I met him during my darker days He didn't know my days were dark He thought it's okay He thought it's human And that's why i, I stuck around for a while . . . Then, I met him again Those were the days i was recovering He didn't know i was He thought it's human And that's why i, I stuck around for a while more . . . By now, I met him every other day Those were the days i was happy This time he knew I was He thought it's human And that's why i, I stuck around for a while longer . . . I met him every day,  Those were the days i was happier He didn't know it was because of him He thought it's human And that's why i, I felt like sticking around for longer . . . I didn't meet him for a day I was hurt this time He didn't know it was because of him He thought it's human And that's why i, I still wanted to stick around ....

I'm sorry I'm sorry I don't understand what exactly do you see in them I'm sorry I'm sorry That I cannot bear to hear a single word, in their favour again I'm glad I'm glad That you have feelings deeper than the ocean and very real I'm glad I'm glad that they treat you well even if what they do is the bare minimum I'm happy I'm happy That it makes me sad sometimes because they make you smile I'm happy  I'm happy that you're ready to invest in them and actually go the extra mile I'm guilty  I'm guilty of throwing hate of throwing shade of being mean and rude I'm guilty  I'm guilty  that everyday this is on my mind, and on it I seldom brood I'm confused I'm confused for I don't understand what makes me so guilty,  happy and sad I'm sorry I'm sorry For it will never change because I will always want the better for you I'm sorry  I'm sorry For I know it's selfish but this is ...